Why?

Why has there been usually a misfit between me and my job?

I like my work now. I really do. It seems ideal (except on job security and benefits, but still I like it).

However, I don't seem to be the right person doing this job. I'm not being productive. I'm not being efficient. I feel like I'm wasting the time of my employer and teammates. I hate that.

Being inefficient, I want to quit so they can find a better replacement. Besides, what I want right now is to enter graduate school. Yet, I can't do that until June next year. Then I have to earn. So it seems to be that I'll be doing this work for another seven months. Or six. I don't think I can quit and look for another work then quit again for my masters study in a span of seven months, or six.

Anyway, I think I have to tell myself:

Kate, you have to be productive! Go, go, go! You love your job, right?